uh oh, I'm ranting...

Acacia's almost 15 months and I'm still nursing her. I never intended for it to happen like this. I ALWAYS said, "One year is plenty." and "Once they can ask for it, you've gone on too long." and "Who would nurse a kid with teeth?" and "You know you're in trouble if your child can unbutton your shirt." Well, here I am.

I do want to wean Acacia, I just don't know how. But, yesterday I had a wake up call. Thanks to Amazon.com's suggested reading links I found two books that scared me. "Nursing Your Toddler" (ewwww...) and "Adventures in Tandem Nursing" (yes, that's where you are nursing a toddler and a newborn AT THE SAME TIME!).
I also came across this verse in Hebrews, chapter 5 recently and cannot get it our of my head.

A Call to Spiritual Growth

There is much more we would like to say about this, but it is difficult to explain, especially since you are spiritually dull and don’t seem to listen. You have been believers so long now that you ought to be teaching others. Instead, you need someone to teach you again the basic things about God’s word. You are like babies who need milk and cannot eat solid food. For someone who lives on milk is still an infant and doesn’t know how to do what is right. Solid food is for those who are mature, who through training have the skill to recognize the difference between right and wrong.

So let us stop going over the basic teachings about Christ again and again. Let us go on instead and become mature in our understanding. Surely we don’t need to start again with the fundamental importance of repenting from evil deeds and placing our faith in God.

At my parents church last week, the pastor made a comment that sometimes, as Christians, we forget that our main goal is not, not sinning. It is to maintain a healthy, open, trusting relationship with the Father. This stage in mothering, is not not nursing, it is to train her to know how to do what is right. God help me.